Wednesday, October 29, 2008 ♡~
身为天秤,出生在秋天的天秤,忧郁是与生俱来的-----
尽管人前你见不到一个愁眉苦脸的她,甚至很多人认为天秤是一个大大咧咧的粗线条女人.天秤太善于伪装,或者说,不愿意让不了解的自己的人过多地知道自己的心情.
在爱中,尤其如此.天秤的爱永远像是暗恋:有好感的时候,听到对方的名字、看到对方的身影,都会有一种不一样的感觉,但是自己会很克制不表现出来.即使有机会在一起,在众人当中,天秤跟谁都谈笑自如、亲切有加,惟独对自己在意的那个人,远远的,只用余光感受他的存在.他的一个表情,一句话,都在天秤心里引起阵阵涟漪.这样做的结果,往往是求近而得远.但是没有办法,天秤就是这样无法克服自己的本能.面对喜欢的人,会莫名地自卑/羞怯.其实天秤是很善于和异性相处的,从小到大,也不缺乏哥们似的朋友.但是,对自己喜欢的那个人,她做不到那样洒脱.哪怕只是主动地打个招呼,也会紧张对方会不会看透自己的心思.天秤期待爱,但又恐惧爱的力量会将自己拖入万劫不复的深渊.
即使两个人最终相爱了,天秤依然表现得冷静有余,热情不足.她会在任何时刻想到你,天气的变化，随便遇到的什么人或者事,念头一闪就转到你的身上去.她会在夜晚想着你的好或者不好,高兴或者难过地默默流泪.她会设身处地为你想很多很多,甚至想得太周到连你自己都想不到的周到.她会为你的某个失误找各种各样的借口,在质问你之前已经原谅了你,但是还是要你一个解释,一个简单的合理或者不合理的解释就轻易能让她释怀.她会为要不要给你打电话或者发短信犹豫很久,生怕打扰到你或者令你不方便不耐烦.她会想象出无数个美好的相处场景,沉浸其中不能自拔.
但这一切,她不会让你知道.天秤并不缺少爱的能量,但缺少爱的勇气.或者说,如果有什么是天秤不能为你做的事情的话,那就是放弃自尊.自尊是天秤的最后一块堡垒,生死共存.天秤看上去开朗,其实细腻而心重.她一生都在期待真正懂她的感情的那个人.你来了,她有多么激动;可是,她又不敢相信那个人真的就是你.她等得太久太苦,以至于都绝望了.所以当那个人出现的时候,她反而慌乱失措了.她不知道如何在一个热烈的爱人与优雅的女人之间做出选择,你更喜欢哪一个呢?她不断地问自己.一方面,她也在不断地问自己:我这样做会不会失去自我?他会喜欢这样的我吗?如果她不喜欢,我怎么样做回自己?
这样复杂而强烈的情绪,你不会真正体味得到.天秤掩饰得那么好,只会对你微笑,即使流泪,也是静静的,不会哭喊发作.如果有伤害,她会一个人反复回味,直到在痛的重复体验中失去痛的敏感,再原谅你,继续.她不大会谴责,不大会推卸责任,她永远把错先揽在自己一边.甚至归结为自己个性的缺陷.天秤在爱里的自卑使她不得不这样在黑暗里爱着.她怕你知道她的"不好",她自以为是的不好.也怕你为她而难过/伤心,那样还不如她自己独自忍受.也许伤到最后,天秤发现自己无力再承受了,她会安静地走开.绝望与崩溃,也不会让你看到,哪怕她痛苦到极点,你看到的,仍然是一个秤静的天秤;顶多,有些冷漠.那冷漠也未必是针对你,很可能，是针对爱的.
天秤知道,最输不起的,就是感情.交付起来,是一点点,一滴滴,直至沦陷;破碎时,却是大厦倾颓,天昏地暗.她了解人性中的任何世俗与卑微的心理,她怕自己柔弱的爱情成为这些丑恶的猎物.-----
这就是天秤,即使受伤,她依然会把过错归于人性的弱点,而不会,真正地去恨.你看到她淡淡地来,淡淡地去了,却不知道,她的心无声地碎裂成了什么样子.
若不是天秤们爱上了爱情，或许，也就不用独自承受那么多。他们的爱情就像在上演的一部电影，他们就在这出戏里，眼看着它从开始到结束。落幕并不可怕，天秤们在乎的是他们成就了一部电影。
天秤们不喜欢落入俗套中的爱情。与天秤爱过的人，也许回头来看，都不知道该怎样去评价那个天秤。爱着的时候是淡淡的，离开的时候也是淡淡的，甚至，连分手的理由都不屑追问。假如一个天秤在你面前掉了一次泪，你决不会想到她在背后曾为你哭过无数回。
天秤的爱情有些自闭。他们喜欢纠缠在回忆里，幻想里，那些破碎不堪的画面对他们来说就意味着完整。其实，做天秤的爱人真是轻松得很，你不用刻意去安排什么浪漫的场合，你什么都不用做。因为，天秤们都有一颗浪漫的心。只要心里有爱，再平凡再普通的事也被他们美化了。
天秤们的内心真的是很温柔。这种温柔绝不是娇柔做作的那种，而是有一颗明事理的心。天秤们懂得尊重别人，这并不是人云亦云，事实上，天秤没有那么多的好奇心去在乎每个人的想法，对自己不在乎的人，又何必较真呢？这是天秤做人的道。而对于自己爱的人，他们的一言一行天秤会拿来奉做“圣经”。
天秤喜欢钻牛角尖，没错。一旦他们爱上一个人，就很难再去相信自己的直觉。他们会抓住对方的一句话，一个举动，然后暗地里穷分析，直到得出自己最确信的答案。当然，他们得出的结论也是相对客观的，天秤们不会傻到蒙蔽自己。但，殊不知这天底下最难测的就是人心，而喜欢猜心的天秤们往往是被自己弄得筋疲力尽的。
爱情是一个人的事。天秤们肯定对这句话大有感触。爱上了，倒反而寂寞了，因为想把自己交给一个人去了解，可这个人懂吗？值得吗？面对着眼前这个若即若离，神秘又淡然的天秤，谁又会想到他们的内心正起着暗涌。而相反的，爱上天秤的人会在某一天突然却步了，想要放弃了。原因只有两点：一是感到缺乏安全感。摸不透天秤的想法，热度也不够，温温的。要知道这世上的俗人千千万，也许他们在认识你的第一天就想着跟你上床，而天秤期待的爱情是首先要建立在精神上的，美的，有幻想空间的。于是，分道扬镳。二是感到天秤的爱是种负担，因为天秤的爱里容不下一粒沙。其实，天秤最喜欢的是和自己过不去，但，人永远无法超越的却是自己。天秤的这个结老也打不开。
天秤们多有自虐倾向。他们天生就懂得“悲剧艺术”的魅力，他们的爱情里要是没有一点悲剧色彩，就好象是不完美的。矛盾吧？！虽然，天秤们追求的是幸福美满，但他们又喜欢作茧自缚。失恋的天秤，往往不会寻找什么好的途径来忘却，相反，他们会找出所有的情歌来听，让自己沉浸在其中无法自拔，直到自己都撑不下去为止。
也许，只有那种历经坎坷，途径九九八十一难最后才修得正果的爱情才是他们内心最最向往的。所以，要是没有一点“分量”的感情，天秤们有时就会“分心”。
Royal Writes の
12:05 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008 ♡~
noted many things that happened.
got to know how my frenz, one by one found their happiness.
but i wish that they will notify me too.
not letting me finding out from other frenz and from facebook or friendster.
maybe, i have drifted and neglected many frenz.
but what i wanna say is i wish you all happiness.
true frenz are always happy for each other.
Marlene, I wish you happiness.
Msg spreads realli fast.
one uploaded pic frm ur friendster frm de previous nite, the nxt morning almost all of us noe le.
lol...
coz we haf too many frenz who keep an eye for each other.
Nxt time intro ur guy to us kkz.
no matter wad, we will stand by u, ALWAYS!
Joy, I know u r perfectly alright and happy.
but dun let Kenchi bully u kkz.
KENCHI!!! I WARN U, U BETTER DUN BULLY HER.
Although i noe u r nice to her, but dun take advantages of her kkz.
she maynt matter or notice, but u dun let her always wait for u or go bishan find u.
guys do the waiting, and send the gurls home.
nt de other way round.
and most IMPTLY, she is NT FOR SALE!!!
so u cant sell her.
JOY, dun worry kkz.
anything, we will protect u.
liting, u haf ur ztlg.
ming very nice to u.
all of us can see.
frm ur fotos, we can see the smiling faces of u and him.
i oso observed how our ting wan to become for ming.
cook and bake for him.
haha... can see nxt time our ting will become a good housewife.
but dun get emo too easily kkz...
although im nt a gd listener, but promise me u will approach me too when u r sad or anything.
we will stay close tgh.
i promise, i will be ur listening ears and will standby u when u needed someone, other than ming.
stay cheerful kkz.
yiNgz, u r very happy and xing fu.
can see frm ur smile whenever u tok abt kenneth.
he may nt be very romantic, but can see he is very tie xin.
when u r sick, he will buy u meals to ur hse.
aft work, he will fetch u.
can see he lurves u lotsa.
so we haf no worries at all.
dou, erm...
i dunno how shud i phrase this.
but u noe my stand frm de beginning.
nt only coz he is a PRC, but i can foresee the complications nw and in the future.
i understand ur dilemmia.
but since u had chosen him, u muz oso expect the issues that will surface.
like wad u said, before ur relationship wif him deepens, u wan to put it to an end.
but u cant, coz de relationship has deepen.
y nt, juz gif it a try before ending it.
although i noe that this relationship may not be successful, somehow, i think it is a process, an experience u muz go thru so that u can flourish.
i juz hope that u wont regret for any decision.
zaza, ehhhhhh, i BWG.
coz i dunno de guys.
and u seems to change bfs fast too.
hahaha...
i juz hope the current one really luv u and also treat u well.
and dun everytime CMI for our outings.
no more PS-ing us liao kkz...
update mi too kkz...
tingting, u muz be cheerful kkz.
no matter wad happen, u will still haf me.
looking back at my gurls.
i wonders lots.
i juz hope for my own happiness.
coz currently, nth really delights me at all.
family - needless to say.
work - im feeling stress and getting bored abt it. but aft dis wk, i will become a perm staff for 2 yrs bah. aft which, study?? i hope so.
myself - i falling into depression. im angry and upset wif myself. for lot of stuffs and some uncertainties too. need to figure out on my own.
somethings, simply cant tell any of my gurls at all.
coz myself, i haf a barrier cast up.
an inner one which is hard to demolish.
guess wad i need is peace and time.
to think things over, find my own path in life.
hopefully, over time, i will be recover and be as cheerful as ever.
i just wish everyone to be happy and healthy.
any sadness, i will share ur loads with you.
Royal Writes の
12:23 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008 ♡~
My 20th Birthday!
Celebrated with my dear gurls.
din really had a big boisterous celebration like in the past.
but still i enjoyed it.
my gurls made my day.
but moi heels ruined my feet.
had a mini celebration at KBox Cineleisure.
some pics:
My Fav Pics:
to be honest, this pic is my fav.
it is nt realli de person i took wif lah.
so dun be too happy.
but it is becoz of de lighting.
like the reflection too.
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Dinner Treat by moi 2 MTs from CGH @ T3's Sakae TepanNice dinner treat by my 2 management trainees at moi workplace.
took a ride down to changi airport to makan.
chose Sakae Tepan for dinner.
nt bad.
in additional, there was discount for DBS credit card users.
Thanks guys!
Thanks for all the wishes and the presents I received.
Special thanks to my gurls who made my day.
Taking the leave and pushing away appt just to pei me.
Royal Writes の
10:31 PM
hahahaha!!!
i strike 4D again!
yay!!!!
but win only $30.
win starter, IBet
spent $12 on 4D.
so only gain $18.
but better than none.
at least i gain a GV movie voucher too.
won in a survey participation.
hahaha...
rmb last yr, same sunday.
oso strike 4D.
but more money lah.
lol...
Royal Writes の
10:07 PM
我现在的心情 好比这首歌的歌词
沿海公路的出口
用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊 寂寞海啸把我卷走
用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头 微笑参透覆水难收
倘若说放一次手 就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手 怎麼走
这首歌一直在我心中播放着。
你懂吗？
Royal Writes の
12:14 AM
Friday, October 24, 2008 ♡~
Drop a simple yet complicated-to-answer question here:
Why are the letters on the keyboard nt in alphabetical order?
stunned?!
this is a question asked by a 3 yrs old kid who is learning to use a computer.
her question shocked all of us.
couldn't answer the question.
me and her mummy looked ard and stared at each other.
*speechless for a moment*with no answer from anyone, i jokingly said,
"coz the person who invented the keyboard din noe his "ABCs" as well as our lil gurl"den she replied,
"Mummy! REALLY?! Why is the person so stupid?"everyone laughed and her mummy told her,
"Nono, girl... no one is stupid. Gurl, it was only a joke. Mummy didn't tot of dat too. Why don't you ask the teacher when you go to playgroup? Maybe ur teacher noe the answer."
haha... as if the teacher in the playgroup knows.
but at least we din have to answer her question.
We did somehow returned back to the topic.
lil gurl:
"Mummy, the keyboard very hard to press press. The ABCDEFG, all run ard. Mummy, tell me why why?"Mummy:
"Mummy dunno. Mummy not teacher. U ask jie jie."*Bomb thrown to us o.O*
*Cold Stares*Me:
"do you see any words that the letters are spelled exactly like "ABCs"?"
"No rite?"
"And so for convenience sake, dey somehow random the words in a typical way for us to type easier."
"Erm... when u grow older, you will understand."lil gurl:
"Mummy when will i grow older?"Mummy:
"Erm, very long. Take at least another 18 years."
*Faints*but at least she got quieter.
I think we shud pull kids away frm tv and computer.
=.=
Are the kids getting smarter or are we getting stupid?
Anw, when online to look for an answer, just in case she asked again.
A sample answer found online:
The QWERTY keyboard layout was designed so that successive keystrokes would alternate sides of the keyboard so as to avoid jams in manual typewriters. Is frequently said that the design was also created to make people type slower.
First designs of manual typewriters using keyboards with letters on alphabetical order could not keep up with the speed of fast typers and the QWERTY keyboard layout was designed to reduce jamming. See:
http://home.earthlink.net/~dcrehr/whyqwert.html
Later a layout called Dvorak was introduced to allow faster typing and reduce fatigue but has never got widespread use. See:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dvorak_Simplified_Keyboard
The QWERTY keyboard layout survived the era of electrical typewriters and the digital age because it was the first standard design. Being first counts.
Somehow in the older days, manual typewriters jams.
Christopher Sholes designed the
QWERTY keyboard in such a way, so as to avoid jams in manual typewriters.
(ohhh! so nice of him.
why didnt u tot of passing dwn a manual on y u designed the keyboard in such a way.
Goodness!)Geez...
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Royal Writes の
1:17 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2008 ♡~
i hereby send my best regards to my 2 fellow pals who will be goin to Singapore's furthest chalet for their tough service to Singapore.
Mr Stephen the our Frog!hmmm, like wad i msn u.
dun really turn urself in tian ji zhou kkz...
and ya, usual msg when u r out.
nv in my life had i seen a botak frog.
for our biggest enjoyment, pls call us when u r out.
i'll proudly organise an honourable outing for you (with our cameras).
hahaha...
and rmb to bring along the promised souvenir frm jp.
take care kkz!
and oso take care of ur LDR (Tekong vs Japan).
1 word - HARDSHIP!!!
BUT JIAYOU!!!!
with all the encouragement frm mi!!!
lol!~
Mr Busyman - Cha Cha Hueh, Mr Busyman.
all the best for ur NS tmr.
u wan to build up ur body rite?
nw it is a good opportunity to train urself.
dun ai mei too much kkz, ltr ple think u "ah kua".
lol...
dun emo in camp and try to social with everyone.
hahaha...
Take care and Jiayou too!
Best regards to Both,
GiE!~ =)
Royal Writes の
9:23 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008 ♡~
"Our lives improve only when we take chances -- and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves." - Walter Anderson (b. 1944), American writer
Royal Writes の
10:32 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2008 ♡~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO
SITI!!!
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Recently hasnt been in a gd mood.
Taking a chance tonite, while countdown to my "Birthday", I shall take a chance to think over somethings peacefully.
in another word, it means i will be emo-ing again.
Hopefully, i will be get over them soon.
tmr i will enjoy myself.
im nt goin to waste de splurge made ytd.
Total of $230 worth of damage made to my wallet.
i will turn beautiful and enjoy!
Royal Writes の
4:01 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008 ♡~
TOP 5 WANTS for this b'day!!!
1. Pink Sony Cybershot T77
2. It is all abt STORAGE!320GB Ext Hard Disk & 8GB PSP Memory Card & 2GB M2 Card
Pink Hard Disk! *smooches*
3. Braces =D
4. A new set of B'day Suit
5. Secret =)
Royal Writes の
1:18 AM
不要对我再说爱 - 林凡
篮球火音乐圣典
太多愛不明不白
我還在分手的那一天原地徘徊
太多事不明不白
不明白怎麼笑著走出來
不要對我再說愛,你回來
可是過去再也回不來
不要對我再說愛,我還在鞦韆上搖擺
太多人不明不白
我不想重新開始後還想著原來
太多人不必等待
我不能替你確定的未來
不要對我再說愛,你回來
可是過去回不來,不要對我再說愛
我還在鞦韆上來回搖擺
oh......~ya~ya
不要對我再說愛
我坦白,一直忘不了原來
不要對我再說愛
我害怕
我們再受到傷害
ya~不要對我再說愛
你回來
可是過去回不來
不要對我再說愛
就讓我
一個人靜靜搖擺
一段愛從不明白
到明白
我的眼淚才慢慢流出來
Royal Writes の
12:35 AM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008 ♡~
i really nid something to nourish my body.
wanted to take chicken essence.
however, i really dun like the taste and the smell.
so anyone can suggest what method to remove those taste and smell.
geez... gross!!!
took 1 hr to finish drinking it...
bleagh!~ er xin...
XP
Royal Writes の
10:24 PM
Quote of the Day
"Take control of your destiny.
Believe in yourself.
Ignore those who try to discourage you.
Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits.
Don't give up and don't give in."
- Wanda Carter
Royal Writes の
9:56 AM
Monday, October 06, 2008 ♡~
when someone (nt close to u) tells a story abt u to some stangers and she suddenly msg-ed u.
Her msgs sounded as if it is very urgent and want ur immediate reply when u r busy at work.
Finally i replied, she confessed abt smth nt very big which seems ridiculous to me.
But she apologise and wants ur forgiveness.
what do u think?
.
.
.
.
.
WEIRD
din even have to bother to tell me abt it, right.
would u tell someone that u backstab abt him/her, then apologise and want her forgiveness?
do u even want her to know abt it?
NO RIGHT? Precisely!
= = = = = = = [Shortly aft work and dinner with friend] = = = = = = =
when u reached home, another someone tells u that someone who msg-ed u LIED.
there was more abt it.
and whatever she said to the stangers were lies and it affected u as well.
nw what do you think?
.
.
.
.
.
nw what the shit got to do with me?
why drag me in ur lies?
and her lies were so so SO SO ridiculous, that's all i can comment.
dun wan to say much, coz u kids de "masak masak" dun put me in kkz!
i juz hope that whoever heard her abt me, juz come and get to me personally before you judge me.
if you heard abt me with regards to my dance concert, go ask my dancers why i was angry with her ONLY.
and go ask ple who gone thru my leadership in dance and oso her's.
Ask them to compare us, b4 u set a conclusion.
im nt claimin that im good, i noe i may nt be.
but at least i gave my 100% in my CCA, as a pioneer, i could say i seen the growth.
if nt ask the juniors who've treat them better, who've been teaching the foundations and etc.
but i admit that the someone's mouth is definitely much more powerful than mine.
other than that, with regards to my character and my personality, come and understand me first.
dun believe ask my friendSSSSSSSSS.
nw i dun have much issues with my friendSSSSSSSSSS.
look it is FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS and nt singular tense, past tense nor future tense.
it is present tense with plurals.
NW SCAM OFF!!!
gimme back my 清白!
Royal Writes の
11:20 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2008 ♡~
1 word to describe my current state -
LETHARGYaft constant running in and out frm 2 different hospitals, cooking, housekeeping and tahan all the nonsense, i gotten super tired.
for several weeks been waking up early including weekends and public holiday.
nw all i wish for is to slp in quietly and peacefully for a day - 24 hours of slp.
super tired...
at least today mum is back frm hospital, cut dwn alot of traveling liao.
so can come home and slp liao.
past few days frm sun onwards, practically juz knock out when i laid on my comfy bed.
some time online but human nt online, so whoeva been msn-in me past few days, paiseh lah, i was slping as much as i could.
noticed some msn window, but din bother to see and replied, juz moved de cursor to the shut down button and off the switch and returned back to slp.
every nite routine was the same.
sianz...
fallin sick le.
ytd, was shocked by my own look when i woke up.
face super pale, lips turned super dry and white.
head was super pain.
took me quite a while to gt out of my bed.
applied lip gloss b4 i went out.
on the train was super dizzy.
called joy she nv pick up.
=.=
called tingting but she seems quite busy.
aft dat SUPER LOTS of foreign workers got onto the train.
wah lao de smell, GOSH!!!
faintz...
sick liao, de BO made me even more sick.
managed to tahan to KKH.
pretended as if i was super active.
but honestly, i can feel my body was super weak.
slpt a very short while on the chair beside my mum's chair.
aft which body seemed more settled.
make up really makes wonder.
on lappie to watch my shows which i din managed to watch for the past few days.
oso web cam wif tingting...
=)
so sweet of her. hope she jiayou for her upcomin exams.
dat joy i really BWG, zhong se qing you.
=.=
but at least she saved me from de bangadeshy stalker...
=)
one fruitful thing abt mum's hospitalisation is dat i managed to contact wif my cousin.
we nv tok much to each other, but dis time we tok alot.
we discuss many stuff like when is his wedding and even toking bad abt why KKH would haf macdonald.
also teased him abt his skin colour is so dark dat i tot he was a malay when he stepped in.
lol... but realised he was more approachable and funny than b4.
=)
anw, UPSET!!!
super upset abt smth i read.
all i cld say, try to tahan for the sake of "mo ren".
trying to kip as quiet as i can.
but better dun further provoke me liao.
argh!~
Royal Writes の
7:38 PM
