Finally, La Passion 2 Dance Concert Dates r fixed and Tix are Out for Sales...

Featuring: SACSS Indian Dance and Modern Dance
Date: 25 and 26 July 2008 (Fri and Sat) Choose one Date
Venue: Victoria Theatre
Time: Night Time (4gt to ask, shud be ard 7pm onwards bah)
Tix Price: $15, $20, $25 (Back, Middle, Front)

kkz... Frenz, who wan to go can contact mi.
Good Frenz all have to go.
If you love mi soo much or think im impt, choose the Front rows ($25) tix...
If you think im nt dat impt lah, den you can choose the Back rows ($15) tix...
ehemmm... you all noe who u r, so zhi dong hor...
buy which tix hor depends where i am in your heart...
hahaha...
jkjk nia lah...
Middle row Tix will be sufficient lah...
BUT Front row Tixs r PREFERRED...
hahaha...

All proceeds goes to our school fund-raising for the coming PRIME.
so help help lah...
we nid a bigger studio and more locations for our dance practices.
i dun wan to dance at the sch canteen liao...
of coz, there will be nicer classrooms, bigger hall hopefully.
so the gurls wont cramp up anymore.
nt sure the convent will be renovating mah.
but if gt, gif the nuns better places to stay.






GOSH!!!
I HAD A SUPER TERRIBLE DAY AT WORK!!!
DAT GURL IS MURDERING MI!!!
Soon i nid to go to A&E to see doc le...
ever since she stepped into the counter.
she started askin silly questions.
damn...
and every referral, every appt, she kept askin mi.
as if she din learn it b4.
freak hell...
was controllin moi temper.
zainap started to make fun and was hintin to everyone dat im abt to haf moi "PMS".
haha...
but all of dem were kinda "ti liang" for mi.
anw i dint hold much long till i erupted.

AFTERNOON WORST!!!
she took abt 1hr plus to sort the casenotes for MSP which has the least no of casenotes.
less than 30 bah.
i was freakin stunned by her progress.
so i asked her, why so long???
she can still proudly said dat coz alot of c/n nt in trolley!!
OMG!!! no c/n miss lesser, so juz write tracer slip, if nt refer to retrieval list to check which clinic to transfer nia mah.
in de end, i gt to help her do one hand OT trolley (at least double of her MSP trolley of C/N) which hardly took mi 20 mins to do it, returnin and sendin of c/n to other clinics.
she was freakin slow till i gt to pei her do till 6.30pm.
zzzzzzz...

argh!~
tmr, fri and mon oso de same.
damn...
i cfm MC on fri liao...
fri gt dance rehearsal, go recruit to submit timesheet and nitez gt gatherin.
let halena do wif her bah...
i really had enuff of dat noob liao...
BTH!!!

thinkin abt tmr, i feel like cryin ah...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
god bless mi!!!
AMEN!!





Doom!!!
tmr halena will be on leave.
thurs, fri and nxt mon, sab will be on leave.
so counter will leave mi, dat new gurl and either of dem.
i can expect disasterSSSS to occur.
and moi lunchtime will be drag too, till abt 2plus bah.
=.=

dat new gurl hopeless lah...
she is here for like reaching 3 wks and she still struck at registration and casenotes.
when i was workin for abt 3 wks, i had started learning on billing, casenotes i had done independently too.

im so worried abt moi casenotes.
damn...
today 2 mini trolleys of casenotes already took her more than an hour to do liao.
while using the same amt of time, i completed 2 big trolleys of casenotes.
reaching 3 WEEKS LIAO!!!
why why still so slow and retard??
i really doubt her listenin skill.
askin her to do smth simple, i nid to repeat for freakin shit no of times.
she can nod her head and go back to her seat and stare blank.
GOSH!!!
in the end, i had to do it.
dunno it is she really cant hear or wad leh!!
her counter fone can ring for very long and dunno is she pretend cant hear or the fone gt virus she so scare to hear.
nid to kip repeating " Ellis can u pick up the fone? Ellis can u pick up the FONE?? ELLIS PICK UP THE FONE!!!"
finally she picks up den she pick dwn the fone.
i really wonder she hang the fone up on purpose or really the person on the line really put dwn the the fone??

in addition, she has freakin BAD attitude, shitty stubborn and RUDE.
u tell her off smth she did wrongly, she will gif dat F**k up face.
if nt she will throw her tantrum by slammin the things, gif attitude and etc.
stubbornly she repeats the mistakes and everything starts all over again.
another bad habit she has is dat she like to snatch things.
example: when i am holdin a referral letter, and if u wan it, u will say "Excuse Me, can i haf it?" and take it nicely frm mi.
but her case is, she wan it. She simply juz snatch it away frm ur hands.
GOD!!!
feel like askin her where her manners???
and worst thing is that she did it to the patients too.
o.O
2 days did casenotes with her, i had to suffer her shits.
pls lah...
u r workin and nt at ur own hse leh...
of coz we gt to learn and throw away all our temper esp when u r at customer service line.

argh!~
controling moi temper.
soon will explode.
im so so surprise i can take it for so long.
halena, sabrina, zinap, tina and some therapists already blew at her.
some of us who r tryin to be patient.

moi colleagues been askin mi, why am i so so SO cheerful recently??
i replied, "coz i cant pull my face, if i gt sad or wadeva -ve feelings, i scare i cant control and will erupt."
but they could see moi stress up face.
and being considerate, they tried nt to disturb mi and joked ard wif mi.
eased moi tension.
esp during brk, dat new gurl had became our lunch topic.
even staffs frm other dept and clinics also discuss abt her.
diaoz...
but finally i could see unity in our dept too.
all becoz of her.

haiz...
sianz... thinkin abt the rest of my wk, everything is ruined by her...
pray hard the rest of the wk will be a gd day for mi...
and rest of the wk, cant go out to makan liao...
bleagh...





it is reaching 12am soon.
tmr i gt to wake up early for work.
but i still cant slp.
juz finish watching moi tw drama 【命中注定我爱你 11】.

cried thru the show.
i noe it is bad to cry at night, coz de very nxt day sure will haf eyebags.
but somehow, i realli nid to release the tears and emotions.
the show was a medium for mi to gt touchy and cried out.
really quite like de show and is awaiting for the nxt esp liao...

haiz...
i feel like goin east coast again.
but this time, i juz wanna be alone.
while cycling, i will listen to moi music and juz admire the sceneries.
enjoy the smooth breezy wind and also feel the sea calmness.
somehow, it will relieve the retension within mi bah...

anw viv, carrin and i finally fix on the days to tw.
11-17 aug.
trip takes abt $700+.
jetstar is nw havin promo, half-price tix...
this really helps us save alot and thus able us to spend more for the trip.
quite lookin forward to it.

will be completin CGH job by 6 Jun 2008.
aft which will be busy findin new job and oso with the la passion 2 dance rehearsals.
really hope concert will come soon.
so i can quick end it and commit to my job.
since NTU and NUS rejected moi applications and i still unsure wad shud i write for the 50 words appeal.
plus with moi family "Support", motivation for further study haf been reduced.
but kind of thinkin to try SIM.
haiz...
been hearing advises frm moi therapists, but still so unsure abt moi future.
juz decide as the day come bah.

to mi, life have been "Smooth thru".
pri sch, no matter how lazy i was, i still managed to pass PSLE and gt to express stream which was unexpected for mi but yet ideal.
sec sch, always been on the verge of retenting or dropin to NA.
but yet still managed to push up and passed a min grade for 'O' lvls.
aft which still gt into polytechnic.
nt very ideal, but at least still a poly education.
but nw, uni seem so far for mi and career seem like a mist for mi.
unassured wad will happen and wad will be there for mi.
taken everything too readily and easily.
presently causing a difficult task for mi to accept the facts.
haiz... freak sianz...

life is so difficult and i hope moi new wish will come true.
a life wif lesser regrets and suffering.
cant take it much longer.











feeling upset and dispirited???
or do u have any of these symptoms???

Changes in sleep habits such as insomnia, early morning awakening, or sleeping too much.
Changes in eating habits such as loss of appetite or weight gain.
Decreased energy, feeling of fatigue.
Restlessness and irritability.
Difficulty in concentration, remembering, and making decisions.
Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, guilt or worthlessness.
Persistent sad, anxious, or empty feelings.
Loss of interest in pleasurable activities, such as involvement with loved ones or hobbies.
Thoughts of death or suicide.

try doing these tests and see how u score...

http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/bipolar-disorder-153804-40.html
http://www.lessons4living.com/depression_test2.htm
http://www.med.nyu.edu/psych/screens/depres.html

我们未必最后会和心里最爱的人结婚

结婚未必是你所深爱的人

结婚是和一位愿意陪你走一辈子

smth i heard frm de radio, aft hearin it, many tots ran thru moi mind.
i dunno wad some of u will think.
but honestly i think it is absolute true.


haiz...
recently too many inner feelings le...
smth cant be said out, even to the closest frenz.
tryin to suppress myself, but i really feelin extremely upset with myself.
i can actually cried while slpin.
was very amazed wif myself.
but i really cant push myself any further.
i wan to run away frm everything.
weakling, u can say.
so be it, coz u wont understand how i feel within me, the deepest part of me...













2 more weeks of work at CGH.
aft dat, lookin for another job.
still very very uncertain abt moi future.
why cant dat damn uni juz accept us.
actually i think having a GPA above 3 is gd enuff liao.
think dat the sickenin govt have no brain.
they wan to be a global education hub.
but there isnt sufficient space for their own local citizens.
and the no of public uni aint sufficient at all.
so far we only haf 3.
they rather reserve the space for the foreigners but they oso dun wan to benefit their own citizens.
and their own citizens haf to go to other foreign countries to study.
so other who arent rich enuff will haf to work so hard for the education.
the education system is so much of contradiction.
so unfair to the locals.

if only all the locals could stand up and write a referendum and go raise this important issue.
at least they can reflect on the education system.
and not juz taxing the population and depriving their own citizens of the education they deserve.
foreigners wont benefit sg too much.
it is their own citizens who will boost their economy too.
dun juz drain the local talents and depend on the foreigners.
own family ple are more reliable than the outsiders.
outsiders wont gif a damn to wad ur future will be.
the future is built by the own citizens.
outsiders can juz whack ur country and they can simply juz wipe their butts and off back to their own country.
who cares abt the problems they create.
it's ur country nt mine.

wad is this govt thinkin man...











im slackin at work.
it was suppose to be slightly busier.
but becoz sharana is on leave today, so i was transferred to the MSP clinic for assistance.
lol...
and MSP patients r so much fewer than Rehab by alot alot more.
so far since 8.30am till nw, onli 3 patients turned up and 1 more comin at 11.30am.
lol..
and dat one more is a VIP - Mr Teo Ser Luck.
Dunno who, go wikipedia see...
lol...

aft discoverin his age, i was stunned.
he looked so young on TV, doesnt match his age at all.
he look like early 30s to mi.
hahaha...
hopefully when he comes ltr i can see actually how young he looks...
lol...





diaoz...
ltr goin back to work for a few hours.
coz sharana's grandfather passed away and halena on mc.
so i nid to go back.
but pay wise, it sounded tempting.
if i return for work, haiyang (one of de HOD) will take it as i start from 8.30am.
WOW!!!...
8.30am - 1pm is alot and no brk wor...
and im leavin at 5pm.
hahaha...
complete all registration and off i go.
leavin early to go for dinner gathering with classmates =)
but im worried abt moi hair.
tied up sure cant let dwn liao.
coz will haf dat bend mark and messy look.
haiz...
vain...
tmr workin too...
sianz...





she dun seems to change.
she is gttin worse.
ytd even moi milk oso take and drink.
nvm, it juz a bottle of strawberry milk.
i used to forgive her one aft another mistake she makes, but nw this big mistake she made is getting hard for mi to forgive her.
if she ever repent, i will still gif her at least another chance.
but she doesnt, all she could say was, "at least i return back to u, i could haf sell it away. if i noe, i wont return to u."
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz...
if u were mi, how will u feel???

moi conclusion:
dat guy if she doesn't wan to brk wif him soon, she will juz gt astray.
and since ah lian and ah beng wan to be tgh, we cant brk dem up mah...
they r a TOTAL PERFECT COUPLE.
in terms of character, attitude problems, the way they tok to their family and etc.
all de same...
so hopefully dey will end up sweet and nice tgh 4eva lor...
i will close moi eyes.
all i ask for is leave mi and moi things alone and i dun wan to hear their "sweet sticky" talks and their irritating loud conversation which i cant agree.

and initially moi mum noe the problem only.
but nw moi dad noe.
how he noe it, im nt sure.
maybe becoz aft i found out moi sis invaded into moi privacy, den i gt all so angry and started screamin to moi mum abt it.
so happens to moi dad is outside at de living rm and he could haf hear smth and asked moi mum abt it.
anyway, ytd at least it marked the end to de cold war wif moi dad.

i think everyone esp mi is super disappointed wif her.
tried to act as if im alright wif her, but was very sacrastic towards her.
and aft moi parents went in to the transit in de airport, i totally started to ignore dat gurl.
i noe i was bad, but honestly, im like dat.
yes, im so calculative.

i noe she is moi sis.
but had she tot dat im her sis when she done the numerous things to crush moi heart?
and she is still crushin it.
i think everyone has their own limits and it is over de limits le.
so wad kind of attitude shud i be towards her?
other than resentment, i haf nth else towards her.
guess i juz nid more time, and she has to do smth to let mi forgive her if she still treasure the sistership btn us.

anw, moi jie meis dun worry abt mi.
i noe i haf been rather cranky.
but gif mi sometime to get over it.
like u all noe, it takes mi a long long time to forget something vividly in moi mind.
moi stm dun works here.
and thanks alot gurls, for being dere when i needed u all.
u all noe de details to the whole thing.
u all were dere with mi when the "LIVE" telecast of the whole thing happened.
u all understand best why i will feel this way.
thanks for being moi listenin ears and moi advisors...
muackz...
i love u all...





im really really really pissed off...
i tot for 1 day i could haf peace.
at least at work, i dun haf to think so much.
but aft viewin moi own blog, some entries were deleted.
and most importantly it wasnt deleted by mi.
no doubt, on earth dere is only 1 bitch who will do this.
nt even only moi blog was invaded, but moi msn oso was intruded.

not only moi hp was stolen by her, moi money was stolen by her, bags were randomly used by her w/o acknowledging mi, moi clothings including innerwear were taken w/o moi permission.
moi hp contacts stolen by her for her own freakin shit database for her freakin shitty job.
whatelse can she touch?!?
next time in de future when i haf bf, she come and steal too?!?
everything she juz use lah, take lah...
everything juz gif it to her lah...
ENUFF is ENUFFF!!!
she still dun understand!!!
4gt it lah...
I HAD ENUFFFFF of ALL THESE SHITTY CRAP!!
NO MORE CHANCE!!!
aft moi parents r back frm Holiday in HK, i will throw out all the fuss...

initially, tot of canceling the police report.
NW!!! NO MORE!!!
she and her BF will gt it all frm mi...

tell mi how am i goin to face dat bitch.
i dunno wad to say.
HATE HER TO THE INFINITE EXTREME!!!
but so much emotions yet no words can describe how i feel.
so fret up and freakin pek chek.
how i wish to juz leave this world for gd...

feel so betrayed by the kinship which everyone claimed to be precious.
wad so precious abt it???
IT IS ALL BULLSHIT!!!
I wont believe anymore...
trust demolished!!!
it juz leave ple's heart all broken and weepin in tears which r undeserved for...
no more hurt for mi...

心已封闭起来！

道歉也回不来！

为何我要委屈自己

Angie aka 安琪 aka GiE
19
20th Oct 1988
Ex-SACian
Ex-Republican
Diploma in Biomedical Electronics
Dancer
Guzheng Player



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