Friday, March 31, 2006 ♡~
despite being upset and depress, i tried to relax myself by chiong maple.
putting moiself into de virtual world.
no worries at all.
mapled wif joyjoy.
she told me dat keke oso started to play maple liao.
he lvl 20+ liao...
haiz...
feel damn laoya sia.
nvm, frm 13 chiong to 16 within 2 days.
nt bad bah.
haha...
need to chiong somemore, so i can wear those pretty shoes and clothes.
LoL...
felt better aft tokin to joy on de fone.
thanks joy, she is a good listener too.
dis wed gonna haf another outing.
to orchard bah.
coz in de middle mah.
but quite sian of orchard liao.
haha...
i think i haf put on quite alot of weight liao.
kept lookin at myself at de mirror, seeing de tummy, flabby arms and thicker wristline.
and i oso look thru some fotos, i saw myself wif double chin.
AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!
symtoms of being a fat gurl.
NO WAY!!!
need to be more determine to lose weight.
gosh~ realli realli need to trim down sia.
maybe i gonna start wif less food and more execrise.
tmr is Ms Nunis, moi sec skool music teacher's wedding.
haha... finally dere is someone who wan her sia.
but nt glad for her, coz dun like her since sec skool liao.
so makes no diff to me.
but moi sis's class is invited to her wedding, which means moi sis is goin too.
wad sia...
my sis specially bought a new dress, mask for facial, earrings, nail polish and etc.
kaoz... nt as if moi sis is de one gettin marry and she oso packed an ang bao ($20) for her "beloved" form teacher.
OMG!!! nt as if her teacher will gif her an ang bao during CNY.
stupid ple lah.
waste $$...
haiz... forget it sia...
tired liao...
chiong maple till dis morning de 3plus.
and woke up @ ard 8plus in de morning.
juz im addicted to maple, but i noe it wont last long de.
coz i will get tired of it soon.
hmm... maybe i chiong 1 more lvl 1st den slp.
nitez ple~ i go chiong maple liao.
Royal Writes の
11:58 PM
Yeo:
Financial gains and status are important elements in your life. You want to do things in your own way and on your own terms. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength.
Su Hui:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You need to learn the meaning of true giving. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically.
Angie:
You are adventurous with a tendency to be foolhardy. You are aggressive and definitely have leadership abilities. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.
in overall, it is tryin to say im materialistic and i work hard for material affections... i admit it.
YES! I AM MATERIAL GURL!
since i cant be satisfied emotionally den i think i will rather spend money to please myself.
i think it is rather common in dis society bah.
Look ard, everyone uses money to create their own image.
u wanna be cool or pretty, den u gonna to doll up urself wif de fashionable clothes, gadgets and more.
which means dat u got to spend tons of money on those superficial items.
dis is de ugliness of dis reality of de world.
isnt it?
but i dun really hate is world but all i hate is moi life.
guess, all i can do is to learn to accept it bah.
Royal Writes の
11:35 AM
Thursday, March 30, 2006 ♡~
i am f**king pissed off wif moi parents.
dey r sooo CHILDISH and inconsiderate.
dey quarrelled AGAIN and somemore on de SAME OLD STUFF.
can u all change a new topic???
quarrel on de same thing over and over again u all nt sian meh?!?
u nt sian, i veri de sian.
u all r makin me pekchek...
like everything wont last for more den a week, and things start to go back to de original state.
de hot and sparky atmosphere in de hse.
i hate it sia.
my dad asked moi mum to wait for him on monday to go to de law firm to divorce.
haha...
dis sentence damn familiar.
heard for a thousand and million times liao.
i bet 100 bucks dat dey will not divorce de.
sae so many times oso nv divorce.
was freakin angry wif dem for de whole day.
NW STILL ANGRY!!!
ignoring dem as much as possible.
it is their prob, nt as if i can help dem.
dey lack in trust for each other.
ytd, i scolded moi mum.
coz we went bugis ytd, den dat freakin bitch happened to be working somewhere dere.
den she kept askin ple ard where is Singapore Finance Building like wanna to go fix de bitch.
den i scolded her, dun be so implusive and ridiculous.
dere are so many cheers outlets...
den i forced her to forget de stupid idea in knowing where dat woman is workin.
and im nt goin to pei her to find dat woman.
anywhere i checked on net liao, no such building.
dunno where she see de damn address de.
no wonder nobody noe where is dat building.
one is freaking paranoid, think dat her hubby is out wif dat woman again.
de other is hot-tempered, dun wanna clarify de whole matter.
if u really juz fren wif dat woman, den ask her out to tok to ur wife.
clarify de whole situation.
but he refuses, kept firmly saying dat if u trust me dat believe me dat i and her is juz fren, and dun haf to do any explanation at all.
haiz... dunno wad de hell dey thinking lah.
while quarrelin moi dad started to be aggressive, and start throwing stuff around.
stupid, childish and bastard lah.
aft throwing de stuffs, still got to clean up de damn mess for him.
gt broken glasses kkz!!!
ahhhh... almost kanna prick by it sia.
really lah, dey r too much.
had enuff of dis life liao, cant take it anymore.
either dey divorce, or patch up again but no more fights and quarrels or i will fall into depression soon.
i nt sure wad i will do sia.
suicidal tots kept runnin thru moi mind.
rmb de last time, consumed 10 panadols, but de nxt day still woke up and was perfectly fine.
stupid rite!!!
but i wanna run away frm dis horrible and cruel world.
i wan to stick in moi fairytale dreamworld 4eva.
no stress, no illnesses, no quarrels, no fights, nth bad at all.
i can live de way i wan it to be.
Be a princess in moi Lalaland...
but i noe it will nv be true.
guess life is cruel and unpredictable.
sad to sae, maybe i am nt fated to live a pleasant life.
all i wan is a pleasant and peaceful life, is dis wish too much???
startin to doubt my faith.
wonderin is christianity suitable for me?
why God is nt answerin moi prayers?
many qns are appearin in moi mind.
tons of uncertainties, unwillingness to accept de truth and de reality of de world and unhappiness abt moi life.
haiz...
life sucks to de core!!!
tired of living liao.
im really really very tired liao...
i wish, i will juz slp 4eva.
No worries and i can continue to dream.
when i needed u de most, u r always nt ard, nt even a word of comfort.
starting to doubt is my luv worthy for u?
Royal Writes の
11:24 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006 ♡~
shld i feel lucky dat dere is nth wrong wif moi medical report or unfortunate dat dey couldnt find de damn cause.
all de doc said is dat she cant do anything to treat it.
all she can do is to prescribe me medication for de itch and review moi situation 2 mth ltr.
de rash need time to go off itself.
for some ple it juz take days for de rash to go off, but dere are some patients whose rash take a few mths and a few yrs.
aft hearin wad she said, i felt like crying sia.
it sadden me alot.
i wondered wad happen if moi case is special, it nv go off den how?
haiz...
becomin depress sia.
many tots ran thru moi mind.
waited at de pharmacy for moi medicine.
kept ponderin stuff in moi mind, felt quite sad.
den suddenly rmb dat i did bought along biblical book, so took out de book to read.
it was abt prayer.
aft readin 1 chapter, i tried to put myself into prayer.
den when i look up to see wad de queue no, i saw an old lady in front wif a BIG bag of mediciation.
Gosh~
dere were like 6-8 different medicine and all are given for a long term de.
so dere will like bundles of pills in dat bag.
OMG!!!
totally freak out.
but kind of think back, i think i shld be lucky sia.
coz i only had 2 types of medicine nia.
but 2 per day.
however, compare to de old lady, i m much fortunate liao.
den while payin at de cashier, dis middle-aged lady in front of me, had a bag of medicine, i think can compare wif dat old lady liao.
but i think de old lady more jialat.
imagine an old lady so old liao, teeth left dat few nia, den gt to swallow so many pills each day.
i think she each day juz eat those pills can liao, no need to eat other food liao, coz too full.
haha... jkjk lah...
but comparin to dem, im much more fortunate man.
maybe dat is wad God wanna tell me bah.
so i dun think im dat depress liao.
but of coz still sad lah.
i think i juz continue pray to God and im sure 1 day he'll answer her lil daughter de prayer de.
=)
went shoppin @ bugis wif moi mum aft dat.
but goin out wif a lady wif outdated fashion sense is really a headache.
dun believe dat she eva worked in fashion industry b4.
yeah~ photobucket can upload video nw.
great feature sia. but sad thing is dey can upload to 60 sec de video, aft dat de will be automatically truncated.
anyway, i'll still try to upload and will update on de class chalet de videos.
=D
"Whoever follows Me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." - John 8:12
Royal Writes の
6:02 PM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 ♡~
gosh... tmr is de day.
why so soon?
OMG!!!
can feel my heart gonna jump out of moi mouth any moment.
ahhh... for heaven sake.
pls relieve moi stress...
i feel like i gonna burst anytime.
mum sae she gonna pei me to de hospital to await for moi medical report.
so kit cant come along liao.
tot got a fren beside me, i may feel better.
feel sorry for kit, coz made her take leave to pei me, but nw like i put her on aeroplane.
haiz...
sorry kit... <3
but nw gonna go wif a naggy middle-aged woman, who previously luosoh on de whole journey.
muz charge moi mp3 tonite.
so i can listen to moi music on de way instead of de nags.
previously, de batt died halfway home.
haiz...
i really hope everything gonna be ok.
i noe i puttin moiself under unneccessary stress.
but i tend to get worry abt anything easily.
damn scare sia...
finally van sent me de outin foto liao.
detail abt our outin refer to 23 Mar 2006 de entry.
here are some fotos:
van and me
van, za and me
ME dao Rm 51 yi you
still van and me, long time nv time foto wif her liao
=.= she sooo fair, feel so inferior >_<
DKGZQV's feets, but missin de Q's feet.
twinkle twinkle lil star
DKGZQV, still missing de Q
since when i haf 3 hands? haha, van's itchy hand, molested me...
believe it, we knew each other for 14 yrs since nursery. Pals 4eva...
Royal Writes の
11:58 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006 ♡~
yesh~ mummy bought for me a new facial wash.
i haven finish moi garnier light facial wash yet.
but it isnt helpin me in moi pimples.think maybe 1 i can use in de day and de other at nite.
haha...
can purify skin and lighten skin tone at de same time.
=)
2 more days to moi medical appointment.
nervous...
lookin at de remaining no of medicine left, it means de no of days im left to de checkup.
de lesser de pills left, de nearer it is.
still scare abt de result.
hopefully nth bad sia. >_<
tmr goin back to SACSS again...
we gonna discuss on de camp @ de canteen.
yummy yummy... haven tried de food yet.
de skool change de canteen vendor again.
on wed let Mrs VJ see.
den aft dat show Miss Chua.
no matter wad, i wanna train moi dancers to be better.
Better than de modern dancers.if nt, no matter how much we did, everyone still think modern dancers better.
so i felt, if our dancers are more disciplined and motivated to dance better, den dis can kind of prove dat our dancers can be as good as de modern dancers despite de good achievements we had.
even through i oso dislike de modern dancers, think dat dere is a need to resolve de conflict btw de two dance groups too.
cant let it continue anymore.
if nt, i think aft dis batch graduate, de cca will be a chao sia.
some ple wonder y i still so kapo still go back.
i graduate liao ah, no need to worry so much abt dem ah.
wad happen to dem oso nt moi business.but it is moi character.
once im commited to something, i will be very focus to it, and will nt gif up on it, i will do moi very best to try to uphold it.
im proud to be an Indian Dancer.
Nv regretted bein in dis CCA.
juz nw watched campus superstar.
so nice...
adriano and yuyang sooo cute and funny.
haha...yuyang tried to act guai.
but so obvious noe he nt lor.
he damn mischievous de. LoL...
finally see him online liao.
but we nv tok.
haiz...
i think he is busy ba.
but nw we oso dun chat liao.
dun haf de common topic.
how i wish we can go back to de past, like how we used to play ard.
but nw as long as i see him online i will be satisfied liao.
>_<
but nvm lah, i noe i nt dat good either.
nth special in me dat can attract anyone.
ya, maybe kit was right, i m a hua chi kkz.
almost everytime is i zai dan lian ren jia de.
haiz... but really for me fallin for someone seriously only gt dat few nia.
use 5 fingers oso can count finish ah.
dis time wad i fall for is his character nt de look.
previous de, nt really look shuai either, but he has a special feeling dat attracted me.
but think back, LQZ really nt shuai lor.
felt dat moi eyes in sec skool like stick stamp, nv see properly den fell for him.
maybe is his talent bah.
he quite good in music.
ermm... dun tok abt LQZ anymore.
back to de other him.
he is ok bah.
nt sae shuai, but gt talent lah.
when wif him quite comfortable and secure bah compared to moi other guy frenz.
juz hoping everyday, dat he will start a conversation wif me and we can tok freely like we used to.
dreams dat one day he will suddenly come to me and said to me dat he likes me too.
haha... yah, maybe in moi dreams bah.
really nid some luck dis yr.
dis yr like so suai.
everything isnt dat smooth for me.
hope dat things will gt better bah.
wah like alot of things to hope for hor.
LoL... =D
nitez...
Royal Writes の
11:53 PM
Sunday, March 26, 2006 ♡~
yes it is another new blogskin by ME...
im proud of it sia...
isnt it nicer den de previous one.
haha...
chiong frm ytd afternoon 3plus to midnite 1plus.
haha...
been slackin ard.
nth to do so did blogskins.
sometime need to let de brain cells exercise.
if nt by de time skool reopen, my brain will be rusty.
Lol...
rather anxious abt de result whether i am accepted into TP , de class i will be in for sem 1 in RP and moi results frm moi blood and urine.
wish i will be accepted into TP, but i will reject it even im accepted.
LoL...
bo liao rite?
but kind of wan to see whether i haf de ability to gt into TP mah.
one more week for de results to be out.
hope de class for moi lessons in RP, will haf at least 1 or 2 ple who i noe and close to bah.
dun wanna be like a GoonDo in class.
i hate socialising.
i am those type of ple who will be friendly aft i noe de person.
medical report will be out on dis wed.
OH NO!!!
hopefully everything will be alrite, coz i dun wanna face another blow.
one is enuf liao.
and hopefully no more tests, PLS NONONO...
Using Garnier Light facial foam.
nw i look alil fairer.
but i think it needs time to see obvious result.
still rmb someone in class said i look like Malay.
dat day Miss Kang said i look like Indian.
Diao...
worst!!!
she said i got de features - Big eyes, long eyelashes and thick lips.
sooo are dis features Good or Bad?!?
LoL...
nvm, i will continue to make moiself fairer.
LoL...
but honestly i think i too dark liao.
dunno y am i so dark.
i dun play sport, dun go suntanning, and oso dun really go outdoor often.
even shopping oso indoor, airconditioned de.
weird sia.
haiz... stress sia...
but i can manage.
life is full of obstacles and trials.
we need to go thru these to grow.
everyone goes thru it but in diff types and patterns.
dere are reasons for our torments, God will be dere to see it and recognise it.
he will guide us thru, all we need to do is to believe and trust him.
=D
Royal Writes の
1:05 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006 ♡~
went back to skool ytd again.
dun wan to go back, but xiuyun asked me to go back to see de costumes.
so went back lor.
saw Ms Kang CH ytd, had an enjoying wif her.
tok abt de present sec 1s and 2s.
horrible sia.
all of dem gt de qian bian face.
i tot when moi sis batch came in was torturing enuf liao.
wah, yi shan hai you yi shan gao.
now de present batches are worst.
mostly like ah lian and ah hua like dat.
den we oso tok abt how Mr Quan make an impact in SAC, if he is still alive jiu hao le.
haiz...
last time still curse he die early.
how we hated him, and how many ex-SACians came back to show off to him.
but nw... alot of us regret for wad we did.
aft tokin to Ms Kang, saw Ms A Lim.
haha... last time find her so fierce dun dare to tok to her, but ytd had a lil chat wif her.
she still can joke ard wif me.
haha...
still rmb she went on strike wif our class, and our class still had to make a contract wif her.
she is another teacher dat i will nt 4gt de, coz de way she taught us.
still rmb her hw is de only hw dat i hand up on time.
but in de end still flunk moi Social Studies during 'O' level.
those days were really memorable.
showed moi suggested plan for de Dance camp in June.
heard dat Modern Dance is having a camp too in June, and it is 5D4N.
OMG!!!
moi dancers oso quite supportive abt dis camp.
frm de intended 3D2N camp, dey proposed 4D3N instead.
it's a miracle sia...
1st time dey initiated to extent it, tot dey will want to shorten de camp.
we wanted to put de whole cca ple involved which mean oso include de sec 1s and newcomers.
in total, dere will be 61 dancers involved!!!
wow...
when i was still in de cca, de no of dancers in de cca nv exceed so much b4.
if i didn't 4gt, dere were at most 42 members.
haha...
dis is great man!!!
heard some of their suggestions liao.
edited de plan too.
so gonna meet dem again and show Mrs VJ de plan and den submit to Miss Chua.
while doing de plan, we oso trying to contact de ex-ID-dancers.
so hope everything will go smoothly and i think dis camp is de last thing i can do for de dance liao.
coz dis yr de juniors are de last batch dat i m close to liao.
aft dey graduate i wont go back liao coz dun really noe de rest well and plus their atrocious attitudes, i think i will go crazy.
realised dat de sec 1s and 2s noe me and when i went into de rm, some can still call moi name.
de weird part is i nv intro myself to dem and dey are nt close to de seniors which mean dey wont noe me thru dem either.
some can still come and tok to me.
o.O
gosh...
totally stunned.
hope everything will go well...
miz ya...
Royal Writes の
3:38 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006 ♡~
location: tampines KBox
time: 10.45am - 4pm
supposed to meet zaza at bedok mrt platform de 1st door of de mrt @ 10.30am
but za was late.
tot dat i nan de can be early to prove dem i nt always late de.
in de end, i went to de BK below de KBox alone.
when i reach kit and dou reached liao.
dey were alil surprised dat i was early.
in de end, it were za and van who were late.
when za reached we decided dat we go KBox 1st to wait for Van, if nt bo hua.
LoL...
den when we went in KBox, de person who led us to our rm damn damn shuai kkkzzz...
haha...
when we went de KBox were havin pro.
dey were upgradin de system.
in de end, dey extented additional 1 and 1/2 hr, till 3.30pm.
haha... we gained sia...
LoL...
actually was quite moody for de whole thing.
dunno why.
only when reach de end like when i start to sing zhi you and my anata.
aft KBox, dey wanted go suntec, but i left aft KBox.
juz pei dem to take MRT nia.
but gt down @ bedok station.
took alot of fotos.
but all wif van.
once i gt de foto liao den upload some...
LoL...
tmr goin back to SACSS again.
need to help dem recognise some costumes.
shun bian discuss de camp in june
came up wif a rough plan liao.
but still need to polish abit more.
dunno why, feel dat smth is lackin...
nvm tmr discuss wif dem and Mrs VJ.
miz him leh...
cant wait for sch reopen sia.
feel dem sad dis few days, feel life is lackin of smth.
audrey gt daniel, jimmy gt squeena and nw even marcus attached liao.
hhhaaiiiiizzz...
went back to skool de monster juniors kept askin got bf, got bf...
tell dem dun haf, dey dun believe, kept sayin, dun lie dun lie lah.
haiz...
aiyo dun mention it anymore kkz.
i will be sad de...
sobsob...
lol...
Yawn~
sleepy me...
nv slp enuff, coz woke up early for today.
nitez...
Royal Writes の
10:59 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006 ♡~
hey hey...
went back to SACSS wif zaza...
she went back to PM while i went back to Indian Dance.
krystal and desiree saw me and called me "AUNTIE"
AAAAHHHHHH~
im 2 yr older den dem nia...
sobsob...
dunno is dey playin or really...
den reina joined in too.
haiz...
but francesca and Mrs VJ said i prettier, dunno is ke tao hua, fu yan wo or de FACT???
kanna sae by francesca oso dunno is it good or nt.
haiz...
aiyo dun sae anymore liao...
true or nt, oso dun care...
in moi heart i think i pretty can liao.
haha...
wah... de sec 2 juniors which happen to escape moi trainings...
haha... coz i graduated liao.
haiz... so how dey danced is nt up to moi expectation.
saw their new dance, honestly it is damn sucky...
lack of coordination and de way dey danced like wan to dance, dun wan to dance.
so planned to organise a camp in June - 3D2N
de aims of de camp are to improve their standards, polish up their dance for July performance and bonding.
main organiser is ME!!!
heehee...
but of coz need moi darling juniors to help me.
plan to call back de ex-dancers to teach dem, like donna, rosalind, sarah and etc.
nv de less de current dance committee members and de current president and de main power holder - XiuYun.
for dis plan to carry out, we oso need de teachers like Mrs VJ, Ms Chua and Mdm Peg.
so nw it is up to me to do out de proposal and show to XiuYun and committee members den discuss wif Mrs VJ den finally show Ms Chua for her to allow.
hope de proposal can be done by end of March and we can discuss wif Ms Chua in April b4 i return back to RP to study.
gt to noe frm Reggie dat Joanna who used to be moi godsis is goin to RP.
OMG!!! =.=
i gt a very strong bad feeling.
hope she dun join guzheng, if nt, i think i will die...
her guzheng skill is indeed better than me and she learnt longer than me.
haiz...
dunno gt how many more SACians goin into RP.
sobsob...
tough life 4 me... >_<
haiz...
goin to slp liao.
tmr meetin DKGZQV gang.
cannt be late, if nt i will be hack alive sia...
lol...
nite nite... =)
Royal Writes の
11:33 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 ♡~
result out liao!!! o.O
OMG... it is slightly below moi expectation.
but i think nt bad liao...
need to work harder so can enter uni...
2005/2006
Semester 1
A101 Basic Sciences I
B+, 3.5
G101 Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving I
B+, 3.5
A111 Computing & Mathematical Methods I
B, 3.0
G105 Enterprise Skills I
B+, 3.5
G103 Introduction to Communication Practice
B, 3.0
Sem 1 GPA = [3.3]
Semester 2
A102 Basic Sciences II
C+, 2.5
G102 Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II
B, 3.0
A112 Computing and Mathematical Methods II
C+, 2.5
G104 Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics
B, 3.0
G106 Enterprise Skills II
B+, 3.5
Sem 2 GPA = [2.9]
Sem 1 + Sem 2 GPA = [3.1]
expected myself to gt 2.8 de GPA for Sem 2, but yet, gotten a GPA 2.9, nt bad liao...
BUT wanted to gt at least GPA 3.2 for overall (sem 1 + sem 2)
haiz...
diff of 0.1 nia...
=.=
i think nt bad liao...
but i think ic ould haf done better.
sobsob...
but nvm, de result oso nt but, at least gotten a 3.
need to work harder nxt yr.
>.<
failure is de 1st step to success...
Royal Writes の
11:35 PM
slacking for de whole day...
in morning, even b4 i woke up, dey started to quarrel again.
woke up in a state of shock.
haiz...
dun dare to step out of moi rm.
laid in bed until dey went back to their rm.
aft dey went into their rm to quarrel, i faster went to wash up and had a quick breakfast and locked myself in moi rm.
dun wanna listen to their nonsense.
dey nt sian, i very de sian...
aft sometime, a long long time.
dey went out tgh.
but dunno where dey went.
i think things seem slightly better liao bah...
mum juz told me dat she went to pass smth to her fren and asked me to settle moi own lunch.
as usual, for dis wk, de 3rd time i am eat maggi mee.
for goodness sake...
too much msg liao, unhealthy diet.
haiz...
goin back to sec skool tmr, wif zaza.
she passin stuff to her PM teacher, Mr Yeo.
while me, i goin to de dance studio to visit moi dancers and Mrs VJ.
whaha...
juniors, dun do silly stuff tmr.
be serious man, if nt, unavoidable scoldings will be blabber out.
hope we can shun bian go visit our teachers.
miz SACSS...
heard de skool gt alot of changes.
i noe general office (GO) de door change liao, and dey added another corner in de GO.
when i was still studyin in SACSS, de place where i used to collect de class lists and de mini lost and found area.
still rmb, in lower sec when we 4gt to bring txtbk to sch and wanna avoid de teacher scolding and referin us to RTC, we will go to de Lost and Found cabinet to take de txtbk and return it aft de lesson.
haha...
rmb very clearly, almost everyday will go dere.
rmb once de admin staff even asked us, "why r u all losing ur stuffs so often?"
o.O LoL...
in de end, we took turns to go to GO.
wad a silly thing we did...
but miz those daes.
haiz...
>.<
go watch show liao...
dancers see ya tmr...
muacks <3
de world greatest distance is dat u r in front of me, yet dunno moi presense...
Royal Writes の
9:33 PM
Monday, March 20, 2006 ♡~
yeah~ made a new blogskin.
haha... brilliant me made everything within 8hrs.
dis few daes made alot of blogskin designs.
below are all moi hardship i had done.
i nv even done so much for moi sec art before.
LoL...
help me which design u will prefer.
tag me ur choice... Pls pls...
thanks.
btw dun expect much frm moi creations.
haha...
i admit moi art sux.
Design1 (made sometime ard last wk)
Design2 (made de dae b4 ytd)
Design3 (made ytd)
Design4 (made ytd)
Design5 (made today)
i noe mostly r pink... so more in bright pink...
LoL...
no choice i adore pink too much liao...
haiz...
dad and mum still in war.
damn it man, aft de fight ytd, today u can see bruises on moi mum's body.
seein those bruises on moi mum, i start to hate moi dad...
eeeeeee...
he is an inhumane beast!!!
dun tok abt him anymore.
watched campus superstar juz nw, i think all nt bad lehz...
but guy de i hope de renfred get out, while de gurls side i hope is clara.
nw i watchin de 9pm show on channel 8.
sebestian acting nt bad leh...
LoL...
he oso quite cute.
Today S'pore in commonwealth game obtained 1 gold, 1 sliver, 1 bronze.
yeah~
all thanks to de female table tennis players, so we can gt our 1st GOLD medal for dis yr commonwealth game.
hope S'pore will achieve more and better tmr.
missin dat someone...
haiz...
Royal Writes の
8:13 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006 ♡~
haiz...
dey are fighting again...
frm last nite to nw...
my dad even beat moi mum.
i of coz ran in wif moi sis to stop moi dad.
i had no choice but i hit moi dad too, coz he really too much liao.
how could he do dat, even in front of me and moi sis.
i HATE him sia!!!
wad he said oso very hurting.
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh...
i wish i was dead.
my birth was a mistake.
dey haf pushed me to de max liao.
fightings, quarrels, unreasonable blamings and accusations... I had enuf liao!!!
really and honestly, i rather dey all divorce.
LIFE SUX!!!
Royal Writes の
11:02 AM
Saturday, March 18, 2006 ♡~
still sick... and i am nt even feelin better.
been taking medicine, but moi illness still nt better yet.
maybe need more time and rest bah.
been busy wif moi new blogskin and oso watchin shows.
LoL...
forgot to mention in ytd entry is dat mummy finally found a job liao...
yeah...
but she will be workin almost everyday frm 3.30pm - 12am (on sun to 1am).
she is waitressin at east coast jumbo.
hmmm... i think nt bad liao bah...
for her age alot of ple wont want to hire her de and she dun really can speak english.
haiz...
monday is moi turn to go find job liao.
gt interview at audrey's workplace @ 6pm @ suntec city de Tonkichi, a jap resturant.
hmm...
hope can find a job soon coz wanna earn money and go shopping spree...
LoL...
dis holiday damn bored sia...
nth to do...
moi frenz are workin so cant pei me go out.
sianz... =.=
dld rainie's new album 遇上爱
i think de whole album only gt 3 songs nice nia.
庆祝，遇上爱 and 过敏.
de rest of de songs erm, dunno how to describe.
it is juz nt nice lah.
who wans her songs, msn me.
and ple stop askin me who i like liao...
i will nt sae de.
no matter how long our frenship last, 3yrs, 5yrs or 10yrs oso i will nt tell u de.
LoL...
soooo PLS STOP ASKING, kkz...
thanks...
我不要自己一個人 去面對未知的迷宮
眼看著幸福就在前頭 卻無法到手
不要自己一個人 無助的盲目去摸索
愛你 我像個小偷
我可以裝做不懂 你不愛我
Royal Writes の
9:37 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006 ♡~
sobsob...
sick liao...
down wif a flu, cough, slight fever and sore throat.
apart frm de 2 medicines de doc prescribed for moi rash, nw i gt 2 other medicine to take.
sobsob... so many medicines to consume.
gt a blister on moi thumb.
damn pain sia.
kanna scalded when heatin de food.
haiz...
swai sia...
feelin damn drowsy nw.
juz taken moi medicines.
nite nite... zzZZzz... =.=
Royal Writes の
11:55 PM
Thursday, March 16, 2006 ♡~
went for interview in tp today.
i was late, coz de whole tp is so big.
i noe where is wad skool.
but yet, i am very unsure abt de locations of de blks.
supposed to go to blk 13 of de engineering skool.
i found de engineerin skool.
found blk 10, 11, 12, 14, 15 and 16.
but simply couldnt find blk 13.
call ah dou to find out where.
but de direction she gave was wrong.
aiyo.
in de end asked a staff frm tp.
at first dey were oso nt very sure where is blk 13, but aft some thinkin, dey gave me de direction for blk 13.
finally i found blk 13, but no lift nor staircase up to level 6.
diaoz... T.T
truely think dat de skool needs to put maps and signboards ard de skool.
tried moi luck by usin blk 10 lift, which is beside blk 13.
weird rite?
shldnt blk 13 be beside blk 12 or blk 14.
but clever me still found de place.
but it was like 10.20plus liao.
kao...
de staff rm oso like rp de.
need to call de lecturer den can go into their staff rm.
but, i couldn't find de no to call.
aiyo...
why in dis aspect, tp is worst den rp.
haha...
luckily gt one staff so happened came out.
ask him to help me find dat Dr Ven.
saw Dr Ven, de interviewer, he asked me fiercely why i was late.
i juz replied him coz i lost my way.
den he led me to another rm beside de interviewin rm coz de interviewin rm had another applicant.
de Dr Ven was tokin so loud dat i could hear wad he was tokin.
he sounded damn fierce.
ok... finally moi turn liao.
expected qn: " why u wan to apply for dis course?"
definite ans: "coz i prefer business aspect."
aft dat realised dey gonna consider me in infocom.
sobsob...
i think i gonna reject their offer even i gt accepted.
haiz...
i think i am destined to be struck in RP.
at least in rp, i gt 2 freely-chosen modules.
den i frm den i can select business selected modules.
den i will work hard to try to get to uni.
in overall, de interview sux.
Royal Writes の
9:52 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 ♡~
went for medical checkup today.
on de way down de escalator to de MRT station at bedok, saw LQZ.
but he nv see me.
and i oso juz walked pass and pretend nv see him.
realised i gt no feelings for him liao.
haha...
good good, glad dat i 4gt dat person liao.
waited for a bloody long time (more than 40mins) to see de doc.
she is quite nice, kept helpin me to translate moi condition to moi mom in chinese.
she is quite attentive and detail.
i am diagnosed wif chronic uticaria.
but she oso looked damn blur, dunno wad to do like dat.
all de paper which require to do de freaking test, she like dunno wad to fill in like dat.
diaoz...
i got to do alot of tests, i think abt 7 tests.
totally stunned when de doc tell me dat.
OMG... o.O
but i only need to provide moi blood samples and urine sample.
diaoz...
3 tubes of moi blood sample were taken.
felt like faintin aft dat. X(
mom and de nurse still lied dat it is nt pain...
xxxXX... pain lor.
aft de test, moi whole arm cant even hold smth, if nt dere will be a stingingly pain.
need to go back to SGH to see moi results and den de doc will further investigate into moi condition.
nxt appt: 29 Mar 2006
12pm.
aft dat, still gt to queue to take moi medicine.
queued for another freakin boring 40 over mins.
sian... T.T
on overall, spent abt $110++ on de consultation, medical tests and medication.
sobsob... dunno nxt nxt week gt to pay so much or nt.
if nt, i will go damn broke sia.
aft dat, went home, coz fell giddy.
coz i anemic mah...
haiz...
on de train saw moi dance junior, andrea, but i nv tok to her.
coz on de train damn giddy.
at de bus inter saw another junior cum moi sis's frenz, babara...
she really looks like adriano frm campus superstar sia.
haha...
but she is de shorter version de.
on my way home, up de staircase of moi blk, almost fell down.
coz too giddy liao...
had dinner and went back to moi room to rest liao.
haiz...
got to stress abt tmr interview...
sobsob...
dats all for today bah...
need to rest early for tmr battle.
LoL...
nitez... =)
Royal Writes の
9:32 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006 ♡~
i am falling sick liao...
nw gt abit flu, feverish, sore throat and cough...
all thanks to bloody freakin sis, CANDY YEO SU GEK...
kick ur ass lah...
nw spread ur bloody illness to me liao...
ask u to practice personal hygiene, u stubborn, dun wan.
everytime cough on moi face, dun cover ur mouth.
still drink moi drink, eat moi food and etc.
i wonder how ur teacher teach u.
stupid ah lian teacher, go die lah.
nv teach ur student such an important thing.
luckily u haven come into de skool to teach when i am still in skool...
today TP called me, asked me to go for interview on dis thurs.
which means de DAE results wont be out tmr for me...
i still nervous sia...
dunno wad kind of qns will dey ask.
i expectin silly qns, like wad u choose dis course?
why u dun wan to continue ur studies in RP?
and other more qns.
should i be happy or sad?
happy dat dis interview is kinda of leading me one step closer to TP and into a course i like and interested.
haha...
sad is dat i will miz moi frenz in RP and i will haf to start afresh in another environment.
these take time to adapt into a new environment and another type of studyin method.
long and boring lectures, note-taking and i got to write again.
sooo long nv write, hand-writing becomin uglier...
LoL...
but i hope everything will be alrite for me.
I trust dat God will bless me and guide me along.
wish moiself luck for de interview and tmr medical appointment.
btw i decided to gif up on retakin 'O' lvl english liao...
truely, it is a miracle dat i can pass english liao...
wad grade shld i expect if i retake, at most a 'B' only.
worried abt moi medical appointment.
i had mental preparation of de worst liao.
lol... sounds like i so pessimistic.
bad i noe moi body condition.
i noe it wont be dat good.
eva since dis rash thing starts, i been falling sick.
so i guess, it is related to de body's immune system bah...
haiz...
in conclusion for today is dat, i am really fallin sick and feelin damn stress.
dunno why, i been givin moiself alot of pressure.
but i will try to relax de.
Royal Writes の
8:33 PM
so tired...
been slpin late and wakin up late dis few daes.
mummy kept complainin sayin i am becomin lazier.
sobsob...
me, myself oso felt dat i am becoming lazier, slpin longer den i used to, eatin more den i used to, and fatter tooo...
ahhhhhhh...
help help...
i dun wanna become a pig which loves to eat and slp.
x.X"
need to slim down.
but i found a beauty drink recipe which is good for skin and can help u to lose weight.
ingredients:
3 dried rosebuds
1 jasmine teabag
honey
hot water.
methods:
(1) put de honey wif a lil hot water into de teapot and stir to it dissolve
(2) simmer de teabag and rosebuds into de water for 5mins.
(3) serve it hot or if u wan cold, pour it in to a cup of ice.
easy rite...
i feel like i am wastin moi precious time by rottin at home.
havin cold war wif moi dad.
dun wanna tok to him.
so sit at home haf to face him, damn sian lor.
but no job, no income, go shoppin oso nt shuang, coz cant buy wad i wan as freely as i used to.
haiz...
really need to go find a job.
my rash is gttin more and more serious liao.
i am very worried abt moi medical appointment on wed.
hope it wont be dat bad.
DAE result oso dunno is it really release on dis wed too mah.
if really, den 2 major things for me to worry and nervous abt liao.
haiz...
dunno lah...
let God and fate to decide for me.
all i will do is to pray to God and ask him to bless me and guide me thru de diffcult times.
dats all for today lah...
nitez...
Royal Writes の
12:26 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006 ♡~
hmm...
finally aft settling some things, managed to haf some time to write an entry on de class chalet. =)
PS0104 class chalet
frm 06 Mar to 08 Mar 2006
Location - Pasir Ris Downtown East Costa Sand Resort
DAY 1
met ting, ping, yshan, marlene, keke, isuru, darren @ Bedok MRT.
despite ME, stayin de nearest, I was late to meet dem...
LoL...
we had breakfast @ KFC.
den half-way while we were eatin bing and his bf, terry came to meet us.
aft breakfast, we went to Bedok Giant to buy de food.
aft buyin de stuff, met up wif siti...
aft dat bing, his bf, ting and i went to SKP to buy de utensils.
but ltr we found out dat de shop beside SKP sells de thing cheaper.
ahh... felt cheated...
but luckily we haven buy de stuff in SKP, therefore, we went to de nextdoor shop to buy.
aft dat we went to bedok inter to meet de rest.
took bus 17 to chalet.
whaha...
saw moi sec skool.
but look like it needs more maintainence sia...
aft abt 45 mins plus de bus ride, we finally reached de chalet.
Rm 1308 was de rm we gonna stay for de 2 nitez.
and guess wad, piggy and his frenz stayed nxt door...
do u consider a good thing or swai???
we kinda rested in de chalet and wrote letters to each other until de BBQ.
except me, siti, bing and her bf, we rested 1/2 way and left to siti's hse to cook de fried rice and beehoon.
de gurls...
above dialogue is created purely for entertainment purpose (LoL...)
writing de tots and wishes for each other...
den we put de letters into de designated envelopes.
de 2 gays... LoL...actually dey were fightin...
but how did it started, i nt very sure.
guess which one is de real couple.
(ans de center one - bing & her bf)
had bbq, me forcin alot of ple to eat de fried rice and beehoon.
coz it was our hardship lehz...
cannt waste food too.
we played games (true or dare, murderer, heart attack and more) and also chatted abt ghost den drifted to other topics too...
true or dare was crazy sia...
gt de videos but cant upload...
too huge liao...
LoL...
most of us thon de whole nite till abt 2plus am.
den gradually more and more ple slept.
i stayed up de whole nite.
den left @ ard 7.15am, back home to marinate de chicken wings and oso gt some slp.
haha...
Day 2
came back at ard 5plus reachin 6pm.
coz i was too tired and overslept...
LoL...
but when i came, quite alot left liao.
left me, ting, gina, yinsuan, frog and pig.
but dat nite computing fac and co-sponsor for dis chalet, Mr You came.
LoL...
actually his dressing quite tuk leh.
t-shirt tucked in.
dunno how to describe.
gt abit like garang guni...
hehe... o.O
de fotos we took on 2nd day.
4gotten for wad reason, i was angry wif pig.
chased aft him wif a bottle and threw at him.
dunno why moi aimin so good, hit his eye.
alamak >_<
din realised de bottle hit his eyes until yinsuan tell me.
diaoz... x.X
his eye gt abit blue black aft i hit him
feel damn guilty aft dat.
dey even film it down moi guilty look.
sobsob...
sorry sorry...
felt damn bad sia...
aft bbq, we went back to de room to chat.
very mature de toking.
we tok abt alot of stuff...
luv, family and alot more.
ard 10 plus, Mr frog left.
den taufiq and iffa came back.
din realised dat dey came b4 i do.
but dey went to walk walk for a long den come back de.
ard 1plus, we had a 2nd round of bbqing and ting and i drank again.
dis time, dey dun let me finish drinkin, coz dey scare i drunk.
diaoz...
de guys wanted to watch de soccer match @ 3.35am.
so de gurls slept 1st.
but mr piggy waited and waited for de match to start, eventually dozed off.
leaving taufiq to watch alone nia.
nxt dae, we woke up @ ard 8am and started to pack up and leave de place.
taufiq, iffa and pig said dey wanted to stay 4 awhile more, so dey helped us check out.
gina, ting and me went to BK to eat.
aft eating, we went home.
ahhh...
dat how de chalet ended...
we made a wish and hope to organise one more class chalet de nxt yr.
frm 06 Mar - 08 Mar 2007.
hope dis wish will come true...
=D
Royal Writes の
5:36 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006 ♡~
went back to BK today, coz darling ying gt scalded by de bubbling hot oil (ard 100 over deg cel).
gave her aloe vera gel to soothe her poor burnt skin and oso let her tried on moi handmade cakes.
de aunties, Chris, siew li and ying all sae de cake too sweet liao.
coz i tot of only lettin ying taste nia and she requested she wanted icing on de cakes mah.
so i sprinkled alot of icing sugar for her.
LoL...
but dey said on overall de cake nt bad.
yay!!!
wanna repeat doin it again.
LoL...
waited for ah dou...
she late for work sia...
aiyo...
supposed to work at 4pm but came at 5plus...
den when she came, ask her try moi cake, she dun wan...
sobsob...
but nvm lah...
wanna do brownies oreo cheesecake...
nxt time jio someone to pei me make...
but making of cheesecake definitely cannt jio kit.
LoL... coz she dun like cheesecake.
tok to joy while waitin for dou.
den dun why suddenly tok abt who i like...
kao... dis secret hard to keep liao sia...
but she still nt very sure who yet.
i po li gif one clue which is de person is frm RP...
haha...
RP so many ple u slowly go guess...
and i nv sae i am straight nor crooked...
hehe...
which means in dis case, u haf to consider both de guys and gers...
note to joy: even if u guessed correctly who i like, i oso wont admit de...
whaha...
ple who really noe who i liked are nt frm RP de and dere is ONLY 1 person truely noe who i like.
so de chances for u to noe who i like is rare...
haha... =P
happy thinking...
(i feel so mean)
i hope dat it's me who is in ur heart, ur mind and ur eyes...
Royal Writes の
7:37 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006 ♡~
yay~
finally spared some time to bake some fruity cupcakes.
actually wanted to do brownies or cheesecake de.
but missing a few ingredients (chocolate and sour cream) which obstructed moi plan.
sobsob...
nvm... nxt time muz buy these ingredients den wont affect wad i wanna bake liao...
=)
below are de pics of de cakes i baked.
tried to decorate de cake wif some icing
i noe it dun look dat appealing...
but tried moi best liao...
the others which are not decorated de.
taste nt bad lah...
long time haven bake cake liao...
skill abit rusty...
LoL...
found a webbie which haf lots of nice and cute blogskins... kawaii...
preparin to change another blogskin liao...
haha...
need to find job sia...
so damn bored at home...
short of cash too...
miz de enjoyment of having sufficient cash in de pocket and dun haf to think twice b4 u buy any stuff...
lol...
nw gt ikea sale...
sobsob...
wanna go shopping spree...
who gt lobang, tag me or msn me kkz...
will update on de details on de chalet soon too...
=D
Royal Writes の
8:38 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006 ♡~
dis is moi 100th entry in dis blog liao...
is it smth i shld be happy abt it?
100 entries on moi life in de past 2 yrs and de tots and feelings i had.
bloggin is becoming part and parcel of moi life and oso part of moi habits liao.
been thinkin alot these few nites eva since i came back frm chalet.
maybe aft de talks wif moi frenz, i realised how much i distrust luv.
luv seems so unreliable for me. but yet, i am yearnin for it greatly.
i noe i am a gurl who always put on her protective shield and nt lettin anyone in.
no matter wad i will try to put my strong side in front of everyone and tries to hide my inner feelings.
i admit i am fallin in luv wif someone, howeva it is only one-sided bah...
i doubt think he noe either and i dun plan to tell him or wad so eva.
i dun haf dat much of confident and haf nt really gain much of trust in luv yet.
but hope someone can help me change moi opinion on it.
juz wish myself can step out of dis luv trap soon.
been listenin to dis song
迷宮Maze(插曲/演唱:7朵花)
作詞:柯呈雄 作曲:立揚 編曲:林從胤
究竟你想甚麼 但眼淚騙不了人
如果是命定戀人 為何還要對我如此这麼慘忍
記得你曾說過 有個愛情迷宮
只要我們能夠碰頭 就能天長地久
如果真的愛我 就別管怎麼傳說
讓自尊它無情捉弄 管甚麼永恆不永恆
我不要自己一個人 去面對未知的迷宮
眼看著幸福就在前頭 卻無法到手
不要自己一個人 無助的盲目去摸索
愛你 我像個小偷
(我可以裝做不懂 你不愛我)
終於有了選擇 我不是你的晴空 你的心不愛我
只能繼續委屈 做她的替代品
been listenin to dis song.
althrough it sounds quite sad, but it is really nice.
dis song really describes moi current feeling.
esp de lyrics in de chorus.
hope i will really find someone soon, who will really change moi perpectives on luv and let me gain trust on it.
btw, i uploaded de class chalet pics liao...
de file will be valid for dld frm nw to 17 Mar 2006.
so peers frm PS0104 pls dld de pics asap...
de videos are too large liao...
so i cant upload onto leo on any other online file storage websites.
if anyone who wan it, pls msn me.
dat it for today liao...
nitez...
Royal Writes の
11:32 PM
