Sunday, August 03, 2008 ♡~
It is always about THEM.
how bad we r to dem, how they suffer for us, how this, how dat...
and if i would to complain back, then it is fate, coz im born in this family.
ya... it is all fate and destiny that brought me here to meet my difficulties and etc.
so i haf to accept it, NO it is a MUST to accept them.
Coz it is all FATE and DESTINY! MY LIFE.
Facts that cant change that IM BORN HERE!
even though i dont wish to, BUT IT IS MY FATE!
the so called "ARRANGEMENT" from GOD.
i haf nv met anything else in life to put me to an end. Only FAMILY.
suddenly, I start to doubt his presence.
how fair he is, how he judge to make all these arrangement for me, and why he always arrange so much bad sufferings for me.
Good to see someone suffers?
yaya... the positive thinking will be, coz we go thru these, so that we learn.
another thinking, coz he has his reasons for all his arrangement.
and no one else would suffer as much as wad Jesus Christ had gone thru for us his children.
what other reasons?
i cant convince myself.
i dun wan to recognise this FATE and DESTINY!!!
if i haf to, I WILL HATE MYSELF.
coz im so useless, i cant change anything.
but it is true dat i cant change.
dat is also y i chose to live in my dreams.
nw even if im sick, i oso chose to work.
it is better than stayin at home.
anyway, staying home cant help much.
nt as if i can rest much.
juz as i woke up and opened the door, shoutings and scoldings start.
wad is the point?
do i need to start my day like dis?
i wld rather slp thru and do nothing like a coma patient.
so full of rubbish lah!!!
i hate it!!!
QUICK!!! Let Aug 11 come faster!!!
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