Monday, May 26, 2008 ♡~
it is reaching 12am soon.
tmr i gt to wake up early for work.
but i still cant slp.
juz finish watching moi tw drama 【命中注定我爱你 11】.
cried thru the show.
i noe it is bad to cry at night, coz de very nxt day sure will haf eyebags.
but somehow, i realli nid to release the tears and emotions.
the show was a medium for mi to gt touchy and cried out.
really quite like de show and is awaiting for the nxt esp liao...
haiz...
i feel like goin east coast again.
but this time, i juz wanna be alone.
while cycling, i will listen to moi music and juz admire the sceneries.
enjoy the smooth breezy wind and also feel the sea calmness.
somehow, it will relieve the retension within mi bah...
anw viv, carrin and i finally fix on the days to tw.
11-17 aug.
trip takes abt $700+.
jetstar is nw havin promo, half-price tix...
this really helps us save alot and thus able us to spend more for the trip.
quite lookin forward to it.
will be completin CGH job by 6 Jun 2008.
aft which will be busy findin new job and oso with the la passion 2 dance rehearsals.
really hope concert will come soon.
so i can quick end it and commit to my job.
since NTU and NUS rejected moi applications and i still unsure wad shud i write for the 50 words appeal.
plus with moi family "Support", motivation for further study haf been reduced.
but kind of thinkin to try SIM.
haiz...
been hearing advises frm moi therapists, but still so unsure abt moi future.
juz decide as the day come bah.
to mi, life have been "Smooth thru".
pri sch, no matter how lazy i was, i still managed to pass PSLE and gt to express stream which was unexpected for mi but yet ideal.
sec sch, always been on the verge of retenting or dropin to NA.
but yet still managed to push up and passed a min grade for 'O' lvls.
aft which still gt into polytechnic.
nt very ideal, but at least still a poly education.
but nw, uni seem so far for mi and career seem like a mist for mi.
unassured wad will happen and wad will be there for mi.
taken everything too readily and easily.
presently causing a difficult task for mi to accept the facts.
haiz... freak sianz...
life is so difficult and i hope moi new wish will come true.
a life wif lesser regrets and suffering.
cant take it much longer.
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