Saturday, May 19, 2007 ♡~
din mean to show moi attitude.but realli veri irritated by it.she is oso ur daughter wad.y u all ask mi thing like as if im her mother.where she go, i of coz wont noe wad...i see her like barely 5 hrs a day, exclude de slp.see her liao, we oso seldom tok, except quarrel over de stupid stuffs and some problems.i alreadi tried to advise her nt to come home so late liao, but does she listen to mi mah?even ple who dunno mi, but heard of moi sis oso noe she WONT.so y u all seems to blame mi on de stuff and make it as if it is moi duty to let her come home early.i haf moi things to take care of too.u all r her parents, ur duty is nt only to bring her up, but oso nurture.y make it as if being her sister, I nid to nurture her more than u all do.all becoz im closer to her.dat is so bullshit lor...do i look even close to her.NO, nt even a cm...An elder sister's role to guide her and occasionally teach her and be someone she can confronts to.but mi, is sooooo different.I, her elder sister is someone she can come and scream at, to help her do dis and dat, help her cover her mistakes, help her gt her scolding by her parents, help her parent to spy on her, and SO MANY OTHER RIDICULOUS STUFF.ARGH!!!i juz HATE her.im so tired of these things...i realli nid a huge brk frm everything.things seem to be getting out of control in moi life.fyp, family, work, frenz, money and personal probs...i really turnin myself into some horrible freak.SO NT MYSELF ANYMORE...i can be someone who is easy to coax, but oso someone who gts emo easily.but it isn't easy to gt mi out of de emo feel.coaxing onli will help as a form of short-term form of comfort.but emo is a long-term of illness.brkin dwn soon...
u wont dere when i needed u de most...
in a fight wif myself~
Royal Writes の
8:14 PM
