Thursday, March 22, 2007 ♡~
I juz hate practically everything in my life.
I juz so fed up wif wad de fuss i had.
i dunno y i nw gttin more and more depress and upset.
nw family is startin to haf prob liao.
dad once again threaten to stop all financial support, stop moi schoolin and wadsoeva.
i juz had enuff...
I HATE IT!!!why
MOST guys are so
EGOISTIC!!!juz cant admit their faults!!!
does admittin ur mistakes
KILLS U or
LET U LOSE ONE PIECE OF FLESH?!?i doubt so rite?!?
I HATE IT SO MUCH!!!i had enuff of everything.
My life is filled wif
NTH but only
MISERIES!!!i hate GOD so much for puttin me in such a family.
I HATE MYSELF for being defeated by de
wretched fate and destiny.
if I MUZ live my life like dis, i wont rather nt.
and probably juz end my life juz like dat.
it is nt as if i hadn't tried to commit suicide b4!but i juz tell myself nt to do it again.
coz it is juz so foolish.
POPPING 10 over pills of panadols juz didn't bring me to death.
i still woke up
PERFECTLY FINE de nxt morning.
U see my life is juz such a failure.
even trying to commit a simple suicide oso din succeed.
Juz managed to get slightly more cheerful.
but nw, im once again so emo and depress.
hate my life and hope to end it some day.
coz i dun see much hope in my life.
i would rather
prefer loneliness.
if i so managed able to kip myself alive, I
PROMISED myself dat i will leave dis hse aft i get my stable job.
IF NT, BY de age of 21, I WILL MOVE OUT ALONE!!!NO MATTER WAD, I WILL NV WAN TO RETURN BACK AGAIN!!!
best if my company can send me to oversea.
I JUZ HATE MY HOME SO MUCH!!!I feel like running away frm dis hse.
I realli juz cant stay it!!!HATRED, LONELINESS, EMPTINESS, SELF-PITY and MISERIES!!!
Royal Writes の
11:51 PM
