Sunday, May 21, 2006 ♡~
i truely hope dat i can faster find a job and feed myself.
i dun wan to rely on dis family anymore.
they r totally ridiculous...
mum tells me dis and dat abt my father, her disappointments on us and de family.
dad oso tell me dis and dat abt mum and how much he contributed to dis family and etc...
yaya... wadeva...
but the tone of how dey said, i hate it de most.
it is nt purely juz a conversation.
but they r kind of pushing de blame ard and putting false accusations on us, de innocent ones.
In addition, scolding us abt wad they wanna tell each other and so on so forth...
wadeva can!!!
i nt ur anger venting machine.
I haf feelings too, i haf my own problems too.
dun juz add on to us de children.
wad u wanna complain abt each other, juz said it right in front of dat person face.
dun put ur troubles and frustrations on US!!!
as ur child i did enuff, i tried my best liao...
u all juz dun take my opinions.
SO BE IT!!!
dun ask me anymore.
i dun wan to face ur temper anymore.
u can threaten me or wadsoeva.
ok, go ahead, DO IT LAH!!!
but if i cant take it anymore, dun blame me for doin silly stuffs.
im on de verge of breaking down liao...
i juz cant take it anymore.
dis is nt my home.
it is juz a place where i stay to put my stuff and slp.
honestly, im totally disappointed wif this family.
I cant wait to move out.
i juz wan peace.
is it soooo difficult?
u all nt happy juz divorce lah.
dun influence me.
coz if u all cant trust each other, dun wan to tok to each other, wanna be calculative wif each other, hate each other so much, separation is de best solution for u all...
I can take it de.
been living like dis for 18 yrs liao.
juz cant tolerate it anymore.
i HATE my life.
if i gonna be an orphan i dun mind.
dis life is worst den losing ur family.
having such a family, i rather nt haf one.
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!!
once again, i goin to lock my door in my heart.
At home, i goin to keep as quiet as possible, since wadeva i sae u all think im being rude, dun respect u all and etc.
i can be a mute.
i goin to stay in my room and keep quiet.
But honestly, having frenz r better that having a family.
if im troubled or wad, at least i haf frenz who make me 4gt de pains and troubles and cheer me up.
unlike my family, only brings me heartaches and headaches.
but yet, i keep all my troubles and problems in my heart and i nv tell them anything, unless dey read my blog.
but nw lesser ple r reading my blog liao.
so hardly anyone noe how i feel bah.
but i guess it is alrite bah.
im always alone.
so be it.
it is my fate wah...
disappointing and sad life.
dat is why i HATE dis world so much!!!
haiz...
cried so much oso no use de.
i need to be strong.
i wan to be independent.
i wan to leave dis family asap!!!
LIFE JUZ SUX TO DE CORE!!!
Royal Writes の
12:17 AM
