Sunday, April 23, 2006 ♡~
moi sis came home frm church today and showed me 2 shows - Unlocking the DaVinci Code and the Gospel of Judas.
It is available in youtube.
i seriously reccomend to everyone to watch it, but aft watchin it, u will start to doubt abt de christianity and the bible.
u might wonder, is it true?
is judas' betrayal arranged by Jesus and Judas is juz followin it?
for centuries, Judas had been condemn to be the worst villian in de entire world.
but is he being wronged by us.
how are the gospels in the bible selected?
are they all facts or just a lie created for us to believe?
if everything is a lie, den wad will happen?
wad will happen to de christianity ard de world?
riots, prejudices, chaos and terror?!?
i guess de impact will be very huge den no one will be able to clean it up.
wonderin m i prayin to de wrong God?
dere is dis fear in me, dat i nv expect.
im so scared, by i cant explain wad im terrified of.
but de reaction made by moi sis was diff.
she was more indulged in de bible and tryin to find out more.
on de other hand, im running away frm de fear im having in mi heart.
startin to haf serious doubts in moi heart and moi mind.
i guess any christian who watched the both shows will definitely doubt abt de faith, at least alil.
many qns, will be floating out in their mind.
i wished dat de gospel of Judas is fake and wadeva we believed will be dere 4eva.
i really dunno how should i react, if everything is fake.
was touched by God since i was a young child in kindergarten.
moi paternal relatives r mostly catholic.
b4 moi great grandmother died, dat was de 1st time i prayed to our lovely father nt to let moi great grandmother leave us.
den in pri school, i entered a catholic school where we haf mass and during de assembly we will sing and pray everyday.
im oso close to de nuns in de convent in our skool.
i oso rmb in pri skool, i will go to de chapel during almost all of recess, b4 and aft skool.
in pri 4, i gt to noe more abt God and even visit a church for Sunday service.
de 1st christian church i went was, Lighthouse evanglism.
in sec skool, i oso attended mass, but slowly distanced away frm God.
till nw, i still believe our God.
But yet, slowly start to doubt him and drift away frm him.
haiz...
dun wish all those will happen.
nitez...
tmr gt school.
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