Sunday, April 09, 2006 ♡~
dis mornin moi family fought again.
but everything started frm moi sis.
haiz...
everything was appalling.
dad went to cut moi sis hair.
of coz, i tried to stop him, but some of de hair was still cut off.
haiz...
he still beat moi sis today.
argh... i really hate being at home.
felt sorry for moi sis.
but she really deserve it lah.
who ask her to deny her faults and still argue abt it.
haiz...
family problems are nv endng.
when will all these put to an end.
everything seems to be bottlin in moi heart.
more and more problems, burdens and stress are accumulated.
im feeling very angry, sad, distressing and more...
de emotions in me are really hard to describe.
really need someone to tok to, but de one dat i wanted to confide to wasnt dere for me.
i wan to spread my wings to fly.
wish i can fly away frm these problems.
if only i haf de ability.
haiz...
coop up in moi rm for de rest of de day, watchin full house.
it is damn nice.
cried almost thru out de shows, esp de middle to de ending episodes.
damn sad and touching.
i left wif 1 more dvd to go, gonna continue to watch tmr.
been tearin for de whole day.
haiz...
dere was a song in de show which is veri nice.
dere is dis very part of de lyrics which is veri meaningful and it really describe abit of how i felt for him too.
it goes like dis:
"I think I love U
Coz i miss U
I'm falling for U
Nw i need U"
hope dat i will at least haf him by my side.
i think maybe in moi dreams nia.
i juz moi one-sided thinking nia.
but still wish dat one day, he will be de one to say it 1st.
coz i noe, i will nv haf de courage to tell him dat i like him de.
if only he noe...
8 more days to Year 2 in RP.
stupid tokong stop askin me abt TP lah.
cannt gt in den cannt gt in.
dun ask so much.
bleagh...
tired abt my life.
really hope to put an end to everything.
Easter is coming...
can i trust God again?
i really dun wanna hear anymore preaches.
thanks to all moi frenz who tried to help me.
but de problem lies within me.
maybe i shld juz take everything slowly, let me find my way to God on my own and wif my own abilities.
if God really wan to save me, den there will always be a way to lead me back to him.
rmb i hymn dat i often sang in pri and sec skool - God will make a way.
de lyrics tell everything.
"God will make a way, where dere seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannt see, he will make a way for me.
He will be my guide, holds me closely to his side."
so no worries ple.
i noe i will find a way back to God.
ahhh...
suddenly feel like goin for a shopping spree to release myself.
any kind souls wanna pei me?
juz tag me or msn me kkz...
falling in love is easy, loving someone is hard but forgetting someone is even harder...
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