Thursday, February 09, 2006 ♡~
tried to cover up moi stress and the problems that are making me sad. in class tried to 4gt abt wad happened at home and pushed myself into stupid madness. i m totally nt myself today. but de guys oso very wad de la... dey really driving me nutz la... everytime make fun of me... sobsob... guys are irritating la... today i seemed to make a fool out of myself... sobsob... haiz... nvm it is over liao... feelin so childish and stupid...
found a job @ expo frm 10-19 March @ expo... $5.50/hr... book fair... position still dunno (coz 4gt to ask) LoL... tmr goin 4 interview... hope everything will go smoothly for me...
nw in class... juz finished rj... dun feel like goin home yet. dun feel dat sense of belonging anymore. haiz... i think i am gonna to fall into de arms of miseries, devastation and depression soon. haiz... breaking down sooner or ltr. need someone for me to rely on to heal moi hurting heart, will be dere for me always and luv me... but i dun think it will cum true la... wanna go back to de perky me... but i think it is hard la... when am i gonna to release myself out of dis utter confusing world? Father, when r u goin to take me away and let me to return to u? Today problem got to do a lil on bible, i found dat i didn't noe God as much as i tot i was. away frm church so long liao... need to indulge myself back into de gospels and bible studies. LoLz...
My prayer
Father pls gif me ur blessing and guidance in everything i do. Help ur poor child. Save me from de salvations. Pls let me return to moi cheerful and perky me. Dun let me fall into the evils' hands. Bless my family and release us from the miseries. Take away the misunderstanding we have in our minds. Let us reunite together as a family. May u answer my sincere prayer. Amen.
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