Thursday, October 20, 2005 ♡~
Today is my b'dae, but yet i m nt happy. I nv felt like dis b4...
Sad abt wad... Me, myself oso dunno...
Contradicting rite...
Met Audrey in de morning, she gif me a bag.
It is a present from Audrey, YiJin, Tanya, Marcus and anyone else?!?
I nt sure. Thanks alot. 2nd present of de dae apart frm my mum.
Todae i was veri busy on msn. Y?
Coz I had to return my frenz dat sent me b'dae wishes...
Thanks alot...
Aft went home, but yet still dun feel like goin back to de hse dat has no love and warmth.
I loithered @ de void deck for quite some time, den i decided to go back.
My mum made my fav food sushi, almost every yr on my b'dae she will cook sushi for me.
Thanks. She made a special cake made up of sushi rice.
My family gathered for dinner, but everyone veri quiet.
Only my sis wished me a happy b'dae and sang me b'dae song.
Although her vocal was horrible, but i still appreciate it.
Unlike my parents, so quiet.
Aft dinner, my dad gif me $200 for me to buy hp.
But is it enuf? Nt even able to buy a black and white hp wif mono ringtone.
Wad eva. He cut his hsehold money.
So de $200, becoming my pocket money.
How long can it last?
I had enuf...
Once and again and again ... cut my money.
Dat is wad he can do when he is nt happy wif de hse.
Stupid fool!!! De greatest bastard in de world.
Haiz...
Had enuf... Y my life so miserable?
In front of frenz haf 2 act cheerful, if dey see me unhappy, dey keep askin.
I dun wan 2 tell much nw...
Kit and de gang dun like 2 hear.
Tell my poly frenz oso no pt, dey can't help much too...
Haiz...
I think i m sufferin frm depression...
Sometime when i m alone, i feel like crying...
Feeling sad always...
Waiting for someone 2 make me feel happy, someone to cheer me up...
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10:48 PM
